The two week wait

I'm now in what's called "the two week wait". Typically, this is actually two weeks, but thankfully for me, it's more like 11 days. Anyway, this is the phase where I can't do anything but take my vitamins, rest, and hope and pray that this whole thing worked! It is especially hard today, when I'm working from home and really don't have much to do but think and wonder - are the tiny babies still alive in there? Are they growing, or are they... not? After all of this, will it work? It seems like there's still SO far to go! (And, there is).

So for now, I'm going to try to keep myself and my brain occupied elsewhere - the days will tick by; they have to. I have forbidden myself to take a pregnancy test before May 18 - people rarely get positives before then. But people rarely get positives 10 days past ER (10dper) either. At least it will give me plenty of foreknowledge for The Beta Call - I'd rather be prepared for the news than wait on pins and needles all day on the 22nd. I'd give myself an ulcer for sure.

I've been talking to the babies, willing them to grow strong and healthy and snuggle in tight - promising ice cream and toys and puppies and everything else I can think of that may sway them to my side.

Ugh - sometimes I think this whole thing is SO STUPID - why does it matter SO MUCH? Well, at least I feel good about myself that I waited a whole two days to freak out. Yay, Stacy! You held on! Seriously, it is utterly and completely in the Lord's hands, now, and this is where I MUST trust that He knows what He is doing - and that He simply wants me to wait for now.