I love my little girls

Some days of this pregnancy have been harder than others. Early on, when morning sickness was causing weight loss and moodiness, I told Surfer that I didn't like the babies. I was happy to be pregnant, but felt that the babies were almost enemies, working against my body for their life support. And then I saw them for the first time - well, the first time they looked like little babies, on the ultrasound and from that day on I began to fall in love.

The day we found out it was two girls was also tough. I didn't want two girls, or so I thought. My visions of boy/girl twins and our "complete" family went out the window. What if I never have a son? And then I began to feel their little kicks, they're "love pats" all across my tummy. To see them playing and snuggling together on the ultrasound and to realize they take after Surfer or I made them more complete and unique to me - and now I can't imagine anything but having my two little girls.

Pregnancy does strange things to the body. Days when it messes with my digestive system, puts a strangle-hold on my lungs so I feel like you can't breathe, and cuts of my circulation if I don't lay down just so tend to overwhelm me. How can I make it through at least the next 12 weeks? But then I look down at my belly and see a little thump against my skin, and I realize what an absolutely amazing thing is happening inside me - my two little girls are growing, developing, getting ready to be born and to become more a part of our lives and hearts than we can even imagine right now. What a small, insignificant price to pay for the next 12 weeks if at the end of that I can hold my babies close, hold their little hands, and kiss their tiny faces in amazement that they are here - they are ours!

Heavenly Father, please continue to bless our baby girls. Please guide their development and growth, and please see them safely to a healthy birth at just the right time. Thank you, again, for this gift of pregnancy and all that it entails - that you are allowing me to live a miracle right now! Thank you.

Another great report

Praise the Lord! Our beautiful little girls are growing healthy and strong, and my doctor said, "Just keep doing what you're doing - things look great!"

Amazingly, little baby B had grown 4 ounces (and is now 14 ounces, up from 10) in just 14 days.... that's nearly half her body weight gained in that time! Baby A wasn't far behind at 13 ounces; an impressive increase from her 10 ounces two weeks ago. No wonder I feel like they're stretching me out!

They were just darling, yawning and scratching their heads, wiggling their toes. I am so spoiled by getting to see them so often on ultrasounds! I love it.

The best feeling in the world...

This is the part of pregnancy I have waited for and dreamed about... and it's even more wonderful than I thought it would be. There is nothing that compares to feeling my two little Thumpers kicking about inside me! Two weeks ago, I started feeling faint kicks - but it was difficult to distinguish them from air bubbles. Last week I could definitely make out the little thumps. But this week, those little girls have gotten strong! Thud, thud, thud! They're my "I love you, mommy!" kicks, and its just so amazing.

I usually can tell when it's baby A or baby B - or both, which is the most fun. I have two beautifully active little ones in there, and what a joy it is to feel them move!

At this point

As my mom commented, I haven't been blogging a lot lately. There hasn't been too much exciting going on since we found out that our babies are girls! But I thought I'd do a short update today.

We had an amazing experience of God's protection last week. I was driving to work, and felt a bit funny. Couldn't breathe well, started having fuzzy vision. I got off the freeway at my work exit, and within two blocks, I couldn't see, couldn't hear, couldn't feel my hands and feet! I was so grateful to have been lead off the freeway, to a parking spot on the packed road, and I was able to call brother Producer to come help me. I thought I was going to be sick, so I jumped out of my car and that helped my blood flow to my brain again - but I was literally seconds away from completely blacking out in a locked car in the sunshine and heat. I am so thankful for God's protection (didn't black out on the freeway - yikes!) and for Producer's and Boss's help. Wow.

And now, I sit here and realize that four months from today, if I haven't had the babies yet, I will be induced! I hope that it doesn't come to that or a c-section, that I'll go into labor naturally. But only four more months! God-willing, we will have these babies in at most four months from today!

I can do anything for four months. All the "lovely" side-effects of pregnancy can't get me down (although they can make me feel like crap some days!) because I am SO close to meeting my little girls!

Please, Lord, help me to stay strong and keep a top attitude for the rest of this pregnancy. Thank you for your amazing gift to us - these babies! Please guide their development and bring them to a healthy, full-term birth. And help Surfer and I, as we prepare to be parents, to be the kind of mommy and daddy You want us to be. We are so humbled and grateful that You are letting us experience this wonder and joy - Thank you, thank you! Thank you for their beautiful little kicks and turns inside me!

We're having....

TWO GIRLS!!! Wow - we are so thrilled and shocked and excited! With all the brothers on both sides of the family, we were hoping for at least one little girl in there and now we get two! Both babies looked terrific - great size (10 ounces each!), great measurements on bones, abdomen, head, heart, stomach, kidneys, etc.


Both babies like to keep their hands by their faces, and Baby A likes to suck her thumb! They were just darling... and funny: they're all jumbled up in there, so Baby B was constantly kicking Baby A in the tummy, but then Baby A would let Baby B have it with her fists! At one point, they were snuggled head to head. Oh, it melts my heart. I can't believe we're only a few short months away from meeting our little girls! And until then... it's time to shop for pink!


Heavenly Father, we are just amazed. Thank you, so very much!

19 Weeks!

So happy to be one week closer to meeting our darling little ones! The babies have been growing a lot this week - not too much movement from either one of them. As of now, they're about 5-6" long from head to rump, and weigh about 7 ounces.

Only a few more days until the "big" ultrasound - so I'll post some news on Monday night!