I love my little girls

Some days of this pregnancy have been harder than others. Early on, when morning sickness was causing weight loss and moodiness, I told Surfer that I didn't like the babies. I was happy to be pregnant, but felt that the babies were almost enemies, working against my body for their life support. And then I saw them for the first time - well, the first time they looked like little babies, on the ultrasound and from that day on I began to fall in love.

The day we found out it was two girls was also tough. I didn't want two girls, or so I thought. My visions of boy/girl twins and our "complete" family went out the window. What if I never have a son? And then I began to feel their little kicks, they're "love pats" all across my tummy. To see them playing and snuggling together on the ultrasound and to realize they take after Surfer or I made them more complete and unique to me - and now I can't imagine anything but having my two little girls.

Pregnancy does strange things to the body. Days when it messes with my digestive system, puts a strangle-hold on my lungs so I feel like you can't breathe, and cuts of my circulation if I don't lay down just so tend to overwhelm me. How can I make it through at least the next 12 weeks? But then I look down at my belly and see a little thump against my skin, and I realize what an absolutely amazing thing is happening inside me - my two little girls are growing, developing, getting ready to be born and to become more a part of our lives and hearts than we can even imagine right now. What a small, insignificant price to pay for the next 12 weeks if at the end of that I can hold my babies close, hold their little hands, and kiss their tiny faces in amazement that they are here - they are ours!

Heavenly Father, please continue to bless our baby girls. Please guide their development and growth, and please see them safely to a healthy birth at just the right time. Thank you, again, for this gift of pregnancy and all that it entails - that you are allowing me to live a miracle right now! Thank you.